Bye bye 2010.. Hi Hi 2011..

Most Memorable At 2010 :
-Went to KL travel with Gangs Of Friends..
-All of the time that I worked at nightclub "Rasa Sayang"..
-My birthday party..
-My white hair.. xD
-Started my Hairdressing..
-Enjoyed musics when we are jamming..
-Went to KL alone find my beloved before.. :'D
-SUPP Dota Tournament..
-And.. I KNOW YOU!!!^^

Wish At 2011 :
-Hope my mom's sick dont getting worst..
-I will success everything that I want to..
-Hope can travel again with Friends!!!
-All of my friends will sucess their dream..
-Everyone beside me will be healthy and happy always..
-Find a true love..
-All of us friendship wont break.. and always keep in touch..

GUYS!!! GOOD LUCK HAVE FUN at 2010 years!!!!

By : Vaz Tan <3

You Happy.. That's enough.. ^^

I saw your status nowadays..
Its can prove that you're happy..
I also happy for it..
You can live your life by yourself..
I'm happy for you..
I think I'm gonna disappear inside your life slowly and slowly..
You will forget all of mine stuff slowly..
Slowly you will wont miss me again..
Slowly you will wont love me again..

I Hope You..
Happy Always :')

By :
Your beloved-ed Shin Chan..

Everything will be passed slowly..

sing..?

I really no mood to sing a song nicely now..
I only will sing for my bands..
Now..
The bands already half dismiss already..
No more classes..
No more training..
Drummer working..
No drummer = not a bands..
Haiz~

Dota Tournament Is Waiting Gg

09 november, tuesday..
I went to cyberline cyber to draw for our tour.
Wtf..
I draw tiok Sarawak Top team at 1st match?
Single knock-out sommore..
Very moody about that..
but..
We will try our best, even their winning rate is more than us more more..
Even got that 1% to win..
We also will try our best..
Tomorrow is the day!!!

GOOD LUCK!!! HAVE FUN!!! ^^v

Miss The Passed..

When you're lonely, I'll always accompany you whenever you need.
When you're having joy, I'll just stand far far away see whether you got smile.
When you're upset, I'll borrow you my should let you cry on it.
When you're angry, I'll give you my hands to let you bite on it for you to release.
When you're happy, I'll smiling together with you even you don't know about it.
When you're sleep, I'll see whether you isn't covered by blanket so you wont get cold.
When you're left, I just had nothing to do because everything I did is meaningless without you.

Maybe all if this action are childish or lame..?
But.. All I want you to know is simple that's with 3 words..

" I Love You "

I hope that's I went to find you can be keep repeat unstoppable from I was reached airport..
But.. Everything Is Over and It's cant be again anymore..

Hmmm...

Before and after break up ,
Jiu shi will not same..
Haiz..
Speechless lo..
T-T
Dont know how to explain ah...
Ish~!!!

Dota~!!!!

OmG~ Dota Tournament SUPP Coming Soon!
My team is going to that tournament..
So excited..
Because we are almost 1 year something dint have join any tournament again~
Can say is DiZ-Devastationz Reborn? HAHA!!!
We will try our best at this tournament..
A bit sad that is.. Teammate change a lot..
Changed 3 teammates..
It's ok..
As long as are using devastationz this name..
Our spirits all are still will be together as long is not the same teammates..
Hope you guys will support us and go see us when we're competition~!!!
Did you hear it?
[DiZ]-LazyGirls- (Gabriel Teo)
[DiZ]-SunnY- (Sunny Wan Hui)
[DiZ]-Dilliox- (Anderson Lo)

REALLY HOPE IT YOU GUYS WILL BE THERE EVEN ONLY 1 MATCH!!!

Ish..

Why I felt so weird today..
Seem like very pek chek..
Or missed something..?
-_-
What happened wor?
Jiu shi felt not well..
Dont know why...
Seem like there's something holding me on..

I'm useless.. T_T

This year december my hairdressing got a exam already..
But need RM 428 for a paper.. very expensive..
I get from parents..
My father told me..
Dont make them disapointed..
Once my father gave me those money..
I feels that my papa is tired.. (He almost retired soon le)
How old was I? Still need get money from parents..
Feels I'm useless..

Thank You For Put So Much Hope On Me!!!!

Dont worry.. Papa and mama..
I sure will earn many money to give you both enjoy your life and 孝顺 you both..
I PROMISE!!!

13 Oct 2010 Morning..

Now was baru free..
cause mama early in the morning du fall down..
Was busy helping her to massage and others..
Heart pain saw mama face like this T_T
Haiz.
And missed Rigi II class again..
Hmmm..
Hope mama will be more fine than before bah..

early in the morning..

Feels so tired today..
And lazy..
Dont think wanna get up from bed..
HAHAHA!Totally no power aneh~ ^^v

Happy de feels~!!!

Hehe!!!
I dont know why suddenly got a feels very high wor~
Maybe is songs did? Maybe is...? I also dont know why..
jiu shi hen happy tonight!!!
Long time no like this de feels already wor~!
perfect night!!! HEHE!!!!!!! ^^v

Why do I cant feel you sad?

Why do I cant feel you sad?
Have nothing to do when with me apart?
Why do you recover so quickly? Isn't with me.
I DID NOTHING THAT GAVE YOU MEMORABLE?
Once I did something that did with you before,
My heart pain, And mood down.
I really do not like you so strong.
Until now, I was still will cry sometime.
Already 1 month ++ that we broke up.
I really useless.. =')
I cant control my tears like you.
Maybe I just need more time...

Nice trip at KL.. The only chance to meet you.. But..... =')

I was go to KL when 23 ~ 26 sept..
Before I go.. Planning to meet you..
But at last.. Dint.. Nvm bah..
I also no put many hope on it..
We just like a stranger already..
Just let it be..
Everything will be fine..
Hope you happy always!!! ^^v

I took courage call you, however. . . . Knew not to call..

All my bad ~ I'm useless ~ ~
I was not so strong you do not know what I would like to express again ~
that is, you do not want to know me ~
I think it is time le ah ~ ~
Although I was very willing,
but ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ haiz..

Going To KL Tomorrow..

I was going to KL tomorrow with 10 friends..
Many hor.. haha~
Hope have fun at there..
And meetup someone there.. ^^
Just hope.. Even I was not put many hopes on that..
Coz.. It's a chance that give us to meet maybe last time or what?
I also dont know..
^^v

Feeling tired..

An indescribable feeling tired..
Can not tell the kind of tired..
Feeling very empty..
Feeling need your care, concern..
But you did not...

Fated To Meant To Together...?

Hmmm..
If you keep think it like this..
Then I only can say..
I can only wait until the completion of our fate..
Because we can not train, how come the fate?
Haiz.. Even I'm sms you now..
You only will reply 2 or 3 messages.. Maybe you dislike to sms...
Or call me.. then just not until for 5 min..
Then its end..
How do I do to keep us down between the fate?
Dont do anything.. watching its go away from me?
FATED? Zzzzzzzzzzzzzz

How Are You Nowadays?

How are you? What you doing? Had your lunch yet? Bath already?

I was have so much question to ask you,
But I have no more chance to ask you.
Those question let me keep inside side in my heart enough,
I have no more privilege to know those things..
T_T I really dont know what I should to do next about our relationship..

Haiz..

Distance for you is a problem.. Then it's will be a forever problem that cannot solve.. Between our heart, will got this problem, its mean we cannot together back again.. I think I have no more chance anymore.. It's time to let you go? You're really nice girl that I ever had.. Even if I don't want to let you go.. I also cannot do anything right..? Sure will 1 day.. You will find a another better guy at there after you success your everything.. I'm just a guy that stand far far away for you.. You wont choose a suffer relationship with distance..

^^

You are my target and dream to make you happiness.
Now you are leaving me.
I have no more target and no more dream already.
I dont know what should I do next.
You future is hopefull,
My future is hopeless.

You planning to study, I dont know how to express my feeling that I wanna support you.
Then you think I'm just simply say something to take over.
Everytime you ask me for an opinion or a sugesstion. I'm trying to give you a best answer and wanna to give you a support that from a boyfriend. But I just dont know how to express it out.

This video. I trying my best to making her happy when her birthday..

Cough Cough..

Cough till make me cant sleep last night.
This few day. Nose keep bleeding, Cough out blood.
Somebody can help me ma?
I have nobody to care.

As long as you love. That's mean I got chance ='D

Her breaking reason..

Her breaking reason is because distance, we cant trust each other.
Other is me cant having a good career, I also know my job is not a good career.
I told you? I'm gonna leave there soon? There's got a contract 1 years.
I told you my dream? Why you leave me alone to face all problem? I need you by my side to accompany me pass and sucess my dream. I told you, isn't?
You cant take all the promise but I never blame you.

I'm now still keep making her angry.

Maybe she cant understand the thing that I'm talk.
She like keep feel very tired when sms with me..
We are already just only friend. Why I still cant make her happy?
I know she now very stress on study and money. Sorry that I cant help you.
I'm know I'm useless.

Yesterday, I asked her. Isn't she still love me. She say yes.
I very happy when hear this eventhough we cant together.
But I trying to get back our love.
Still finding the best way....

5 May Just Having My New Life.. But its end again at 18 July..

5 May..
Me : I Love You. Can you be my girlfriend?
Her: Dont stupid. Even I'm loving you, but our distance is a problem.
Me : Dont worry. As long as you love me, distance is just like a challenge.
Her: Then ok bah.

18 July..
Her : If I say breaking up it mioght shock you.. But think twice, we got so many problem which we can't solve by now.. The main thing is our future..I'm gonna working in airlines and go for study..I don know it takes how long for us to meet up.. I will regret for saying this now but at least is not too late, eventhough we just together for 2 months, but I'm happy with you.. I hope you understanding but please don't hate me.. I'm sorry or everything.. ]
Me : :')

Maybe my love for her is very uncomfortable. She said she wanna study, why I can't accompany she to the studies? She said she not gonna work for airasia, why she think I can't go there find her?