Saturday, July 24, 2010

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You are my target and dream to make you happiness.
Now you are leaving me.
I have no more target and no more dream already.
I dont know what should I do next.
You future is hopefull,
My future is hopeless.

You planning to study, I dont know how to express my feeling that I wanna support you.
Then you think I'm just simply say something to take over.
Everytime you ask me for an opinion or a sugesstion. I'm trying to give you a best answer and wanna to give you a support that from a boyfriend. But I just dont know how to express it out.

This video. I trying my best to making her happy when her birthday..

Cough Cough..

Cough till make me cant sleep last night.
This few day. Nose keep bleeding, Cough out blood.
Somebody can help me ma?
I have nobody to care.

As long as you love. That's mean I got chance ='D

Her breaking reason..

Her breaking reason is because distance, we cant trust each other.
Other is me cant having a good career, I also know my job is not a good career.
I told you? I'm gonna leave there soon? There's got a contract 1 years.
I told you my dream? Why you leave me alone to face all problem? I need you by my side to accompany me pass and sucess my dream. I told you, isn't?
You cant take all the promise but I never blame you.

I'm now still keep making her angry.

Maybe she cant understand the thing that I'm talk.
She like keep feel very tired when sms with me..
We are already just only friend. Why I still cant make her happy?
I know she now very stress on study and money. Sorry that I cant help you.
I'm know I'm useless.

Yesterday, I asked her. Isn't she still love me. She say yes.
I very happy when hear this eventhough we cant together.
But I trying to get back our love.
Still finding the best way....

5 May Just Having My New Life.. But its end again at 18 July..

5 May..
Me : I Love You. Can you be my girlfriend?
Her: Dont stupid. Even I'm loving you, but our distance is a problem.
Me : Dont worry. As long as you love me, distance is just like a challenge.
Her: Then ok bah.

18 July..
Her : If I say breaking up it mioght shock you.. But think twice, we got so many problem which we can't solve by now.. The main thing is our future..I'm gonna working in airlines and go for study..I don know it takes how long for us to meet up.. I will regret for saying this now but at least is not too late, eventhough we just together for 2 months, but I'm happy with you.. I hope you understanding but please don't hate me.. I'm sorry or everything.. ]
Me : :')

Maybe my love for her is very uncomfortable. She said she wanna study, why I can't accompany she to the studies? She said she not gonna work for airasia, why she think I can't go there find her?